first time blogging :S

hello, sooo im bored and i have now decided to try out the world of blogging.
i really do not know where i should start with this or where this will go but i might as well give you something about me to start of with.
Well my name is kelly and i really cant say i have had the worst life for a 16 year old but i cant say i have had the best life. My life has been full of obsticals that i try to miss out on as i tend to pick the "giving up track" which im trying really hard not to do anymore. I then think of the things i have had in life that i wish hadnt have happen, i dont think a 16 year old should have to face the facts of her best friend passing away from cancer when she hadnt even turned 15 yet i really dont think that is fair. I tend to think my life is pointless i see no point as their can be hardly any good in it so i tend to do things i wish i hadnt done, which then lends me to massive list of regrets that i have created on myself which i wish wasnt their. I tend to think that everything in my life goes wrong because of me and its not jsut bad luck or they way life goes i seem to think it is just me and its what i really deserve, but im starting to see that i cant change the way that the world comes to me and all i can do it take it and make the best of what im given.
I love my friends they are the best thing in my life even casey and she has moved to the other side of the country i think school will never be the same without you but we know you miss us and we will never forget the times we had with you and we wish you to come back wheneva you can!!! maybe for the next grass party courtney has planned it for the 29th of november!!
So im running out of stuff to say in my fist blog but my life isnt a piece of cake but isnt so bad after all i guess.
Im waiting for the right guy to come along so that this time i cant screw everything up like wha ti tend to do or just give up. I might have found the right guy already but i no i cant go back on mistakes i have made :(
i pretty much have a boring life i go to school where im in yr 11, it isnt the best school but not the worse again, i have a casual job which i can really hate at times and then i have my small social life which barely happens due to the stupid teachers thinking that we have nothing better to do on a weekend but do assignments and homework (well the teachers are wrong we do have better things then homework to do)
well this si all for my first blog
hopefully i will be better next time round